Love it!

You left my heart with a hole, and you didn't stop pouring sorrows and sadness in. Now my heart,

is gone.

Alot of things happened recently. Well there might be some unhappy one as well. I went to a movie yesterday, it was supposed to be an interesting movie, but with no subtitles i did not get what the show is trying to say. Plus people around there are like some irritating nuisance. Making so much noise, what a disgrace for bringing them out. After the show just started not long, i ran to the toilet, and i make tessly call me. Is like, i really cannot cope with it anymore. With someone whom i loved being right at the side chit chatting with his friends, and before that he was saying he will accompany me through the movie. Plus those stupid irritating people making my eyes pain. So i decided to hide in the toilet until the movie ends. But not when see teng came in and look for me. She was also annoyed by them, but what can we do? We have already paid for our tickets and we have to continue watching the show. So, in the end i fall asleep inside the cinema, with air cond plus quiet environment i don't deny that it is a good spot to sleep in. Haha.

After the movie we went to orchard. See teng, pea, and me only. What about my love? Oh he was busy with his friends. We went to get our lunch/dinner at ajisen ramen first. Then only we went to the heeren, i wonder if this was the spelling anyway. Pea spotted some t-shirts that he likes and keep asking me whether it's nice. Wow is like one already cost 35 bucks *++* . Dont worry he bought 3. Lol! Well after that we headed to Bugis straight, for once see teng lack of money to buy clothes. Haha she bought a funny pants and a jumper. I remember that jumper costs her 36.90. Another WOW. It was like seven plus when my leg started to feel the pain for walking the whole day. So i went home, by train, alone, when both of them went to take bus.

At night, i quarreled with my mum. She asked me to get out of the house. So i get out after the 2120948554475 times she asked me to get out. And it was my tenant who pulled me back and my mum was sorry about that too, I think. Then we didn't talk for the next few hours until i went to bed. Is like, sleep together in one room but never talk huh. haha.

As for today, school as usual. Morning assembly was BORING. Yeah every assembly was boring anyway. Recess didn't eat, stayed in class with tessly. It was after that then i heard rumours about you and her. I choose to trust you once again, although this time was the third affairs you gotten me for this last month and now. I hope you are really truth to me, as this time i saw it with my own eyes also. Is like, i dunno whether i should feel heart pain or i shouldn't even have any feelings at all since this was not the first time you made me sad. I prefer to stay calm and cool, i did not say anything, and i did not want to ask anything more. I hope you realise something in your heart when people came and asked you whether is she your new girl. Come on, this time everyone saw. After school was supposed to go orchard again, but in the end i went home. Sorry, really not in the mood.

Somehow i am exhausted today, but there was this someone who wanna play. So i decided to play with him. (:

Haha, today i went for my voluntary work. As usual, my whole body paralysed after a whole day working. This time is not just simple talking and translating, This involves painting the units and the blocks. I reached the destination - Block 48 at about nine in the morning. Went to get my t-shirt, and then slacked for awhile, then off to work! It was seriously tiring, as i was the one who went up and down when people are just inside there painting the wall and ceiling. Sometimes i need to help out in their painting too. I need to get all the equipments they needed, need to distribute people from where to where. Need to go around and see if the residents are impressed with the painting. When comes to a malay family i will need to be there for sure, to translate their words. Which sometimes i do not even know they talked so much for what?! After all that, we have a lunch break, but those food did not look appetising. So from morning till then i never eat anything. Poor me, i never let myself suffered like that before. Well i guess i am top into the voluntary work already.

There are many organisations who helped out, there were this fairfield methodist school, avelite organisation, PACF or something like that, and even the construction workers from the town council came to help out too. More than 10 untis are done with all the helping hands. From a dusty old flat look like a brand new clean environment. I am very happy about it personally. :D :D And i am very proud of myself even though i came home with both legs aching. ACHING LIKE MAD OKAY? Plus i am having menstrual TODAY! Of everyday it comes today. -.-

Haha tomorrow is Monday again, gonna start to work really hard since it's the beginning of February. (:

I wanna find a picture about jabs and injections. But due to laziness then i simply pick one picture and put it here. Haha (:

Today, well a bad day actually. A BAD START I MEAN. This morning went to health promotion board to take my immunisation. Which means injections. Okay at first, i told myself i will explain to the doctor and tell her or maybe a him that i took that funny thing before just because i took it at overseas and i have no record about it so the injections for today will be off. Yeah that's my plan at the first place. Sounds like not working at all. Haha. Then when i reached there, i tried and pleased my mum. Telling her i don't want to be poked for nothing today, because i done that before. You think that works? If you think so i guess you should have a little more mentality, because she just took my health booklet to register without saying another word. LOL.

So at first the doctor examine me, to see whether i am fit to take the injections today, then after that she said i am very fit for taking the injections. My heart skipped a beat, okay i am dying soon. Then she sent me to another room, which is the sentenced to death room. I went in, the nurses looked so polite and sweet. But when the needle came out, they are no longer sweet!!! I thought take one injection only. Then only when the nurse told me that there will be two on both sides of my hand. I was like what?! One already make me worried the whole morning, congrats, now two. -.- I was placed on a chair, that chair look incredibly scary. The nurse put a bit of alcohol on both sides of my hand first. Then the other nurse trying to distract me by talking to me. BAI TUO, i how old already, of course i know what are your tactics?! Then when the first needle went in, it was not that painful actually. Then i thought the second one will be somehow the same like the first one. BUT not when my whole arm numb when she poked me on the other side of my hand. And she make me hold my both hand myself like i am hugging myself. What the hell.

After injections i quicly ran out of the funny building. Yeah i RAN! Then we went to OG, shop for awhile and went to eat dim sum. Mum asked me to call see teng along too. So we three went to eat dim sum together. Then all the way i was busy talking with see teng, texting people, changing names. Haha, after all the window shopping then we 3 went home. What a day, Lol.

Oh and the see teng wanna punch the part where i got injected. What a good friend she was. Who bought you the dim sum today? HAHA! :D

Now i am committing to my home-works. Tomorrow have to paint houses at my neighbourhood area. Will be a busy day again. (:

The next time you think you're falling in love,

smash your head into a wall,

It will hurt less in the end.

The truth never set me free,

so i did it myself.

Random, i am yet to blog again today. Looks like i am back to the interest of blogging. Well mum told me that we have to learnt from our mistakes. If we do not know what had we done, Ask. Ask if we were really wrong and if we do, apologise. For some reasons, we intend to make things confused and sometimes when the truth is out, it will be like, "this is not a big deal?" And we will be finding ourselves stupid for did not making things clear at the first place. And the consequences of that, both parties got hurt for nothing,

Somehow in life, we should not have take things too serious. Anything we are confused, take 3 steps to the back, and 3 steps to the front again. And think again, "wad's wrong?" I should not have being so serious in most of the times and hurt our relationships. I should have taken your "kai wan xiao" as the real joking. Perhaps, after my blown up for the 12345678 times, you have already realise how my characteristics were, and not putting yourself on the endanger side again. Haha, this is so not me, for explaining in such a long paragraph. Okay random part, I feel like eating sotong balls now. LOL.

~

Today i went out, to the coast. Located at the west side. (west coast) Hehe :) With ants and all kind of anonymous insects crawling on my leg. Is actually serves me right because i am walking on the grass instead of the pavement. -.- Then trained to IMM for my dinner with yi ray, ate curry chicken katsu rice, NICE! Strongly recommended :D :D Then keep going rounds and rounds, to search for more food. After like 5 rounds of IMM i finally handed my money to the auntie who sells pork chop rice. It was tremendously nice too (: Then window shopping few more rounds and went home. OH did i mention that yi ray and i was having a great war with ants today? Haha this is the storyline,

i was finding for something on the grass with full of ants at west coast, and one red ant crawled onto my shoe and stayed there, looks like the next step of the ant is bit-ting my leg. So i shouted, "YI RAY, ANTS!" Then he quickly came and was like asking me not to worry, and his hand were holding on my another side of the shoe and without any hesitating he hit right onto the spot where the ant was, and my leg was inside the shoe and the feeling was like "OUCH?!" In results i sacrificed my 3 toes today, but the worst part was the ant did not get away and it's still there although it was dead. Lol." Okay so he felt so guilty and bought me the curry rice. HAHA! :D

After this, i still have my maths homework to be complete. My F&N TA to be done by Monday, and not forgetting the test too. My nickname is. "Superwoman" :)

Have the tension to blog today. Because i had already finished my through train exams! :D :D But yet have not reach the celebrating time, as there are still class test on next week! I just thought i can start to relax BUT here's come the bad news which makes me go down down down down down... ):

Today, is Friday, Which means half day of school. It was raining like cats and dogs in the morning, which makes people feels sleepy. B-O-R-I-N-G~

Mum cooked bee-hoon for me, and she brought me down for chicken rice when i went to her shop and looked for her. And when i reached home i saw the bee hoon and i was like

 "MUM! WHAT IS THIS ON MY TABLE?"

She was like, "oops, i forgot i cooked bee hoon for you.. teehee.." =.=''

The chicken plus the roasted pig = $8.80  -.-    The bee hoon at home = no one's eating it. !@!#%^&*%@&#*

Oh and i am so addicted to the woo-hoo song currently :D

P/S  I never fail my compo this time :D

P/SS   I am longing for Saturday :D :D

If you care about someone

give them a safe place to cry and never a reason to need it

How can i not feel the pain when it is actually extremely painful?

I have learnt one new thing , one new term, one new sentence. Friends, are not meant to keep forever. For they only remember the mistakes you have done, and not looking back on how they helped you to cover your mistakes in the past. Friends, can only see what  things are actually happening now, and not thinking all those happenings that happened between you and him/her in the past.

Well, this feeling feels like shit.

I never imagine that something like this is gonna happen one day. We used to be so close. Now the gap or bonding between us is like what the f? Just because of a guy, does not worth it. Just because of a lie, does not worth it. Just because someone changed for dunno-what-reason, does not worth it. How can everyone of you being so short-sighted and behaves like a cat and a dog? Come on, we are already at this age, and now still playing with those games we played during nursery?

Sorry, this game was just too lame.

I wonder how was the feeling when the heart got gripped and off from your body. I wonder how was the feeling when your skin was peeled inches by inches. I wonder how was it felt when they even chunk out the remaining - bones and cracked it into bits. I wonder, how is this gonna end. Maybe when it's time to realise all these, there will be no more time left. As time, does not even stand by our side.

Guys _______ Something which cost troubles and making the girl's life difficult.

Sometimes, it's a wise choice to open your eyes bigger. Then you can only see how does a good and a bad looks like.

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School was exhausted. I mean those who are attending to school of course. I was even so tired that i slept at 8 last night, Or maybe 9. And i woke up at the time 10 minutes to 5 just to study. How cool can my life be? Getting along with everyone in class, except for some crazy jokers. Getting well with yi ray (sure?) Getting well in studies (hopefully) Getting more and more homeworks and assignments everyday (this goes with no saying) Bought an English book recently, Silenced- Vicky Jaggers. It was not too deep for some elementary readers like me, but yet it was interesting as the storyline keeps me going and started to make me to catch the book when i've got the free time. Well, it's not too bad then.

Well, i knew i had more to write but my eyes are closing. So probably the next time (:

It's funny how we waste so much of our time,

fighting over a guy that we dont need.

And some of us dont even lift a finger for those who are most important,

our friends and family.

(Done by Ji mun :D )

I wonder how many people will read this anyway. Since i left my blog so dead. But today is the last day of 2009. A brand new year 2010 is coming. Of course, there must be an conclusion after the whole year. Well, it will be memorable since there was a big changes this year.

I actually didn't know that i will have the chance to come back when i have not completed secondary school in Malaysia. I didn't know i have the chance to fall into Queenstown Secondary. I didn't know i will become what i was 6 years ago. A lot of things that i didn't expect it to be happen, it happened. Well, thank you god, for closing one of my door but opened another window for me. So summarise this, i shall say that 2009, a great and sad year.

Goodness, i really dont know what to write. Nvm, wish everyone to be happy and healthy in 2010 (:  

I know this ending sucks but,

Ciao! :P

Meet my dearest. :D

I finally got the photos from her! ! ! Haha so that i can blog with photos, look much more nicer. (: Anyway, she is my very good friend from Malaysia. Besties (:

She came at last Saturday, by cruise. But sad to say that she only stay at Singapore for one hour. ): And that was the fastest one hour i been through!!! Haha she came at night, and i thought it was in the afternoon. So me and Yi Ray went to Vivo at one. -.- Which is supeeeeerrrrrrrrrrr early! Saturday, lots of people inside the mall, so we thought of catching a movie to pass time, but every movie knocks on our schedule.  -.- So we went to Plaza, thought will have some movie to watch. BUT. There are no difference from the rest. So we had our lunch there, Mos Burger :D Then after that went to Great World. Haha, STILL NO MOVIE. We decided, the most childish stupid show ever.

The Fantastic MR FOX

Duhh, i felt rather pai seh when i was asking 2 tickets for the show. -.- And the most irresponsible guy laughing behind the scenes!!!! X.X In the end we end up in the park. No movie for the day. ): At night we went back to vivo. And i finally met up with her! Chew Siew Wah, i am so so so so happy to see you. (: When it's time to send her back up to the cruise, i felt bad. Bad as in never treat her better before that, bad as in never took much much more photos, bad as in never hug her longer, bad bad bad! Hope to see you again soon (:

After this, many are coming too. I am actually VERY looking forward to meet all of them. (:

Ciao! (:

Haha i am back from MPS. Yi Ray call it as some old folks home meetings. :) I am back quite early today if not i will be home around 1 or 2. Usually. And today i blog because someone talk craps on msn and make me offline and did not even talk to me now. -.- Anyway, you know who you are. You watch out tomorrow. :P

Today is a zzz day for me. First in the morning, went to toa payoh with mum for her acupuncture stuff. And i sit myself inside the library reading my books. Yeah i was halfway of the book and i planned to finish it. And i did not realise my mum was in the library looking and staring at me until she came beside me and i asked her, "hey since when you are here?!" Haha i admit the book was interesting. :D After that we went to Chinatown, to get some shampoos. Yeah shampoos. -.- But before shampoos i got myself 2 shorts. And that was after 20 shorts i tried and i only managed to really feel comfortable in 2. -.-  That was bad but anyway, i only managed to get home around 4. MPS was at 6! Somemore mum asked me to buy her one sack of rice because no more rice! GG i was really tired!!!

Lazy to go out tomorrow. But Siew Wah is here tomorrow. Haha gonna meet her. Anyway Ji Mun did not online today. So cannot P.S already. Hahahaha! :P

Ciao!

OH OH and Yi Ray got back his W595, congratulations honey (:

I wanted to blog. But Ji Mun came online and talk to me so i have no idea what to blog suddenly. Haha.

Anyway, Siew wah is coming this Saturday, and Ji Mun is coming on the 21st. I was overjoyed to know that! :D I miss you all alot alot alot alot x100.

Haha, looking forward to see both of you. :)

P.S Ji Mun did not reply again. ^^